This is a story of a time when poetry had left me. Poetry to me
the color on life's canvas, the salt in a dish without which everything is
tasteless no matter what you add. My grandfather was that inspiration in my
life. He always believed in me. He always thought I was better than all
children and I had started believing that. He would give me a chocolate every
day, and on Sundays got me sweets, every Sunday a different one. He would read
to me stories that motivated me to be a good person. He had been a freedom
fighter and to me he is the symbol of sacrifice. First a family for the country
then serves as a doctor in a small village, when he could easily migrate to a
city and earn better. Developing the village he lived in and uplifting the
quality of life there, rather than fighting for one. Not remarrying after wife’s
death. Working twelve hours each day even when he was more than eighty years of
age and spending all his free time with grand children (us). Losing a person
like that is like a scar. I was no more the princess, I once was. I was more
close to him than my parents and his loss was greatest felt by me than by any
other person and I still feel it.
Poetry however was
my expression of my soul. Somehow when he passed away I was so shocked I
couldn't express myself on paper as I had been able to before and this was
detrimental to me for I love the written word and it makes me lighter when
words pour out my heart on a paper. But this time I couldn't. My friends told
me I was becoming an introvert from an extrovert that I had been and that was
something even I felt. I just couldn't express myself even if would sit with a
pen and a paper for hours.
My best friend had
decided to do her Masters in the US and so she was away, busy and suddenly one
day a phone call from her lit me up a little. She had decided to take a break
and she was coming to India. She felt deep within she should see me, call it
telepathy. I didn't think much, just booked the first weekend tickets available
to see her. She looked the same, US couldn't affect her one micron and
the girl was as always in high spirit. I had gone to her city to visit her, so
we decided to do everything we did in our BSc days, have the "cutting
chai", sit for hours at tea stall and talk, about everything under the sun
and yes explore all the food possible.
I was silent
initially but then she started slowly un-wrapping the cover around me and I
started telling her how I really felt. She then told me about all that she had
written in the past year. She is a great poet, I sometimes wish I was her, one
that pushes themselves hard into tragic characters and then cry hard for an
alternate reality, only to sleep over it and realize that it was her
imagination. The passion is undoubtedly infectious and while listening to her
talk and her poetry somewhere between sips of tea in an instant I found myself
smiling and so did she notice a change in me.
I had only two
days holiday and it was the time to bid good bye too soon. She gifted me my
first Harry Potter goodies and a diary that said “express yourself” which is
always by my bedside, ready to be scribbled on. Yes the pages are now inked and
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